Ello Ladies And Germs

     Well, phone problemo is fixed at the moment. Haha! We committed unto the deed once again. OHHH YEAH! Probably see him soon.

     Got in a fight with Brad today. He went bat-shit crazy and attacked my cat. And I told him to calm the fuck down and to cut that shit out. Pissed me off, man. Made me think of my step dad.

     Been really tired, lonely, depressed, yet strangely aroused O_o... Le lover is doing his job well at keeping me interested, no? But I wants mooooar! I has lots of cute little plans to make him smile...

     Yawn, six in the morning. Ugh! I don't to do anything but drink gallons of orange juice... and other juice too, I'm not picky. I lav juice! And yes the background was drawn, edited, and created by mwa! And it says,"Don't struggle like that or I will only want you more". But you can no sees... I sowwy... Don't hates me!

     I am so damn sleepy. I loathe sleep deprivation at times... Stupid insomnia... Awww well!

     Have fun all you well-rested people,
                                     superanimay

Le Phone

     His phone is fucked up... So I'm pretty much helpless in that area. I almost got to see him... But that didn't happen. I will see him soon though, I'm sure. Pweases :( ... Drew a pic of myself. I shall upload this to deviantart later... Rahahahaha!

     Boring disappointing day... But it shall get betta! Listening to Daemon by Whitechapel! Fuck yeah!

     Don't run with hedge trimmers,
                            superanimay

Hugs Perhaps?

      My mom is pissing me the fuck off. She won't leave me alone. She keeps harassing me, and yes, I mean that literally. She keeps bitching at me and I want to her to just disappear. Thank God she's gone...

     Luis came today... I'm not happy about it at all. He was begging for water, and I honestly felt bad, so I let him in for water. Biggest mistake EVER! He started up his emo pity party shit. Like creepy as fuck staring at me and telling me I'm not allowed to have anyone one else, he loves me, he wants to stay here with me, how bad my friends are, crying about how cruel I was to him, how he is just so innocent, that he's the victim, everyone is lying but him, etc etc. He kept getting WAY too close and trying to put his hands on me, I was like nooooooo dude. He kept speaking like a mad man, and I just felt horrible around him. I kept asking him to leave but he wouldn't. Then his mom came trying to get him to come home with her, she had been looking for him. He refused and went on to piss me off by denying everything he did to me, bitching and whining, and trying to relentlessly touch me. I lost it, crunched my can of Sprite, threw it and the chair I was sitting in. He kept going at it, followed me into the bathroom, I was screaming get away from me and telling him to get out of the house. I had a full blown panic attack, and fought to get my pills from him so I could calm down. He told me to kill him, then grabbed a bottle of seroquel, threatening to kill himself. I ripped the bottle out of his hands. He would not stop his bs! I told him to tell some other naive idiot his bullshit because it wouldn't work on me anymore. I screamed at him,"Or better, tell my kids that were miscarried your bullshit, like how you couldn't keep your dick out of me!". I lost it completely arguing with him, slapped him across the face, crying, then broke the sink by accident. I fell down when he left the room, and from then on I don't remember much but bits and pieces. I remember gagging and choking, falling again, shaking a lot, hearing voices talk to me, and being grabbed and put on the couch with the covers over my face. Then I laid there for a while idk how long. Then sat up and cried then Rodger came to help me.

     I'm pretty upset right now and lonely. I really am hoping to see Him soon... I miss him quite a bit.

            I lovid yous,
                         superanimay

Miss Me?

     Well, about a week ago was woken up at about 2 A.M. by Lover #2. He texted me and told me to come over which I couldn't because I had to be here in the morning because my mother wanted to go to church. So if she woke up and I wasn't here it would have been...

     Lol so he called me and was rather persistent... (which I enjoyed) And came to the conclusion that he should come over here. So, I waited for him outside with my buddy. He eventually called back asking for directions, gave him directions, then saw his adorable little drunken ass walking down the street like a lost puppy. Greeted him, and we all sat together outside. Lover #2 had the hiccups and I couldn't stop giggling at him. Then he was giving his "that's gay" philosophy(still hiccuping), by then I was hysterically laughing and my friend my trying not to but, he was rather unsuccessful. A few minutes later, friend went back in his house because he was passing out in the chair and le sexy man and I went inside to sit on the couch.

     It was preeeeeeetty awesome. Best I've ever had in a while. He's undefeated between the sheets in my book. Like a friggin' god. He's cool as fuck to be around, plus he can easily keep you laughing. Very good friend to have. And an even better lover. He's perfection really, in my opinion. He does EVERYTHING right in the bed, dude, no joke. Makes me melt...

     So anyways, I was an extremely happy woman. And then he fell asleep, tried to tell me that he wasn't sleepy and said he was just chilling out. Lol He was snoring in about five seconds. He got too hot so I turned up the a/c and I couldn't leave him alone XD. I had to keep messing with him every little while to kiss him or something. Woke him up to Om nom nom nom on his zipper XD. Hopefully he was happy.

     I just hope I see him again really soon. I needs lovins! And through a lovely string of events, confessions, and agreements, I have pledged my loyalties to him, he said he's keeping me, and consider him THE Lover ;). Although we aren't in a relationship, it's perfectly fine, I just hope we continue to have "visits" with one-another. Idk when I'll see him again though... But I know it'll be soon though. And I will be wonderfully relentless with my perversions...

     Have fun everyone!
                             ... I soon will >:}
     -superanimay

It's Fackin' Late

Dear anyone who has the patience to read my blog,

     Recently today was once again slapped in the face by life multiple times. Michael and Adriana still appear to be nonexistent. No calls, no texts, no answers, nor replies. The A/C unit next door still remains dormant, which means they aren't there. Not even an angry message finally explaining to me how the fuck I screwed up this time. Nothing. Adriana's phone seems to be out of service too. I checked by using my mom's phone, which confirmed that she didn't block my number. It's actually out of le service. Next I dialed Michael's number, and left a voice mail. Five seconds later, what do you know, he rings. Confusingly says hello, but I goofed up. I was talking in a creeper voice when I answered and then laughed hysterically when I recognized I sounded like a drag queen choking on jizz. Then, click, he hangs up. I called and left an apologetic voice mail, once again explaining the reason for bugging them.(Have some clothes for Adriana) Sent a text reading what was said in the second voice mail. Turned out I sent it to the wrong person... I sent it to Adriana, whose phone is currently unavailable. I deserve another dumbass award to add to my collection...

     Next on the agenda. My second little lover is also missing from my life. But it would look like he did text me a little while ago asking me who I was. Told him my name and sent him a picture. I then proceeded to ask if this was him. No answer. Hopefully he's okay and lost my number or something. Instead of having his phone stolen, being drunk, random person texting me. So hopefully, he's okay and we're okay. But I have a pretty good feeling he'll be back around pretty soon along with lover numbre uno. Whom still comes around every so often.

     Feeling pretty low. Bought some shit to cheer my stupid ass up. Worked a little. I'm really just lonesome. That's all. Well, that and insomnia. I just imagine I'm sleeping next someone or with more people. I honestly don't sleep well alone. I've always been like that since I was a baby, but it got additionally worse when I lived with my god-sister, since we always slept together. I hate being alone. I mean, I don't want to sleep with my mom though or Rodger. I'd be way happier with Adriana and Michael, or Shebly... God I miss her. You know? Like a close friend, someone that I favor. When I'm alone, I'm uncomfortable, I feel sick and upset, I'm restless, just a mess really. But when I'm sleeping with somebody(ies) I'm happy, content, and relaxed. I sleep well, I still have nightmares though(oh well, you can't have everything). Sadly though, pillows and resistant cats aren't the same. But combining them with imagination, music, sleeping pills, a full belly, and cosiness, it's okay for the most part as long as I don't think too hard and stay on the positive side of thinking.(Letting your mind race into bad thoughts and memories is no bueno)

     Well, I need to eat and sleep so I can be alive in the morning instead of the ever-so-irritable-menstrual-zombie. I'm done ranting for now. Cheers.


                                                      Thankies for readinz,
                                                      superanimay

Ex-Boyfriend Love

"why did you tell your ex that i raped you??

hmm?

he wanted to fight me till he saw me and realized i'd beat his ass like a drum

i know you can see what im saying to you it tells me that you've read it

whatever you druggie bitch go do meth and get fucked by beaners"

Lovely ex-boyfriend, no? Yep, sent me his love^^ over facebook. I'm rather upset by this and remembering his infamous history of being a douche-bag. He may look cute ladies, but he's a complete ass... I need to eat... Yuck, sauce-less pizza... Mazel tov everyone.

They won't let me sleep. Scratching on the walls all night. Tried to sit up, they hit me on the left side of my head. I texted a friend continuously begging for help. Result? Nothing. My head hurts, really, my entire body hurts. I've been pinned to the couch all night. Occasionally, they force me to the back of the couch on my side. Smells like something died. And that it decided to eat rotten eggs before it died. Lovely image, isn't it?

There's more. I have to go though. They said no more typing.