Ever have one of those moments when you just want to cry, but you can't? Well, I'm having one right now. My boyfriend is in nonexistent mode at the moment. Which is oh, so lovely(sarcasm).
Okay, so I've officially lost all my friends. I have no one to hang out with, no one to walk in the halls with or spend the night at their house. No one to paint each others nails with, no one to share secrets with, not even some one to say hi to me. I just feel so lonely. I'm constantly getting bullied at school. I mean seriously, what did I do to deserve this?! I am emotionally drained and it's painful. My life is like one of those bad dreams where you can't wake up even though you're screaming at the top of your lungs, "WAKE UP!". I'm in high school without friends. I'm getting beaten up to the point of being put in the emergency room and still getting suspended even though I NEVER touched the person. Everyone hates me... it hurts. I never did anything to anyone. Never. I thought this only happened to brats or assholes? I'm not talking. I'm not eating hardly. I think I'm getting dehydrated. I'm ashamed to be seen by people. I've picked holes in my skin and I'm covered in scars... I cut off all my hair when I ran away from home, so I look like a boy. I feel disgusting.
I'm still with Luis. Thank God. Almost eight months now. It's all I've got left. I just want to die with Luis and go to a world just for him and me. With no worries, no sadness, nothing bad. Just he and I in love forever.
